Crisis Precipitates Evolution
I did it.
I figured out what I need and I asked for it.
I drove up there and I looked them straight in the eye and I asked for it.
You know how people talk about “standing in your truth?” Well, that’s what I did. I stood there, straight and rooted, my voice projecting from a place I didn’t entirely know I had. It was so… strong.
There was no stuttering, no lead-up, no “umm’s”, no justification, no apologizing, no blaming.
I simply told them exactly what I needed in all of two sentences.
I was unapologetically me to a person I’ve been hiding from my entire life.
And it felt… easy.
Like, giddy excited.
In what’s typically the juncture where I crap my pants and look for any excuse to bolt, there I was, smiling like an idiot.
I guess because this simple exercise had finally sunk in. If I ask for what I need, if I stand up for myself and put myself first…
What do I stand to loose?
More importantly, what do I stand to gain?
A lot as it turns out. A freaking lot.
Filed under, Notes To Self And You.